d.i.s.s.a.p.po.i.n.t.e.d

really2 dissappointed la yesterday..saya sangat2 rasa kesian kat incik tunang sbb dia terkena tempiasnya. dia menjadi mangsa kemarahan saya..

as everybody know, it is so hard 4 me to control my anger. when i'm not in good mood, in the state of dissapointed, i used 2 get mad to everything. even to single or small thing pun bule jadik mangsa..

sangat bahaya la ini orang kan bila tgh marah. cannot control situation.

really sori kat incik tunang. ampun sangat2 sbb dh kena marah mlm tadi.

apa2 pun, really thanks 4 buying me set of sport attire. thanks a lot..

very sad coz maybe have 2 postpone plan of marriage bcoz of sumtime else which is also important 4 my carrier development.

i've a lot of plan in my head u know. but i cant do all d things @ d same time. have 2 do it in stages. feel like it is sooo late 4 me 2 start my life. but, it is better late than never rite?//(ayat penyedap ati utk ownself T_______T)

d.e.n.d.a.m

last nite she & his fiancee layan movie YOU AGAIN @ GSC. funny gak la citer tu. sampaikan si cantik manis (saper tuh?ahaks) tak bley cover gelak. heheh


citernyer ttg sang adik ipar yg ada history time high school ngn calon wifey si abang. macam2 citer klakar berlaku. smpi satu ketika, si adik ipar nih dah dedahkan keburukan si calon wifey ngn menayangkan video rakaman waktu school dedulu. sudahnya, pergaduhan besar tercetus. but, end up with happy ending gak la..

bila ngk citer tu, terkenang gak kisah sendirik. not 2 say kisah silam la. peristiwa tu lama dah berlaku. year 1998. tapi, aku masih ingat smpi arini & aku masih tk bley nk berbaik2 ngn sang empunya badan yg menyakitkan ati aku. tapi, dalam kes aku. dia taktau la pun. cumanya, dikalangan kawan2 gonjengan, sumer dah tahu. siap surrender lagik klu nkwat program yg melibatkan dia. cuma, last year jerk we all g beraya umah dia. sebabnya aku ngn berbesar ati nk bgtau dia yang aku mau tunang. buruk gak perangai aku nih kan. heheheh. tu la, saper suh carik pasal ngn aku. tak pasal2 jer kena boikot. padan muka ko..

puncanya, dia yg bermulut laser dah gelakkan aku sbb aku failed paper ms SPM. masa dia kutuk tu, aku jadi blank. takde idea mau lawan. mujur ada geng lain yg tulun balas kata2 dia utk aku. yg aku ingat, kawan aku tu sound dia pasal math aku yg dapt agg 1, terus terdiam minah tu..

lepas tu, mmg aku takde hati nk berkawan ngn dia dah. bila memasing di alam 'U', aku dgr plak dia citer kat kawan aku yg lain, katanya hanya 'U' yang dia masuk jer ok. 'U' yang lenlain (termasuk tpt aku n kawan2 yg lain blajar) tak bagus..huh, lagi menyirap2 la rasa kebencian aku terhadap dia. sbb tu, aku mmg takmo jmpa dia. sbb aku takut kang aku termaki hamun dia..hahahha

menjadi kepantangan aku kalau org nk tunjuk kerek dpn aku. mmg aku tak bley tahan la. aku mmg menci..menci..menci sangat2 org yg kerek2 nih. & confirm org tu nnti akan terkeluar secara otomatik dr list kawan aku..

bagi aku, hanya org2 yg down to earth cam aku jer layak jadik kawan aku..ada faham? hahahah

j.o.do.h

yesterday @ office cafe while having lunch..12.30noon

usai menjamu selera sang tunang membelek2 handphone canggihnya seraya berkata,

HIM : nak tipon mak, tapi takut ganggu plak. taktau waktu kt sana pkl brp skrg nih.
HER : ohow, taktau waktu apa kat sana skrg nih eh?..erm, takpelah nnti kalau awak tipon mak, kirim salam kat dia yerk. pesan kat mak, erm..nak pesan apa eh?
HIM : awak nk pesan apa?
HER : suruh mak doakan moga2 orang cepat dipertemukan jodoh.HAHAHA
HIM : oh, camtu yer? so saya nih apa?
HER : hahahahhahaha...........

sesuka ati jer cik puan nih nak suh MIL doakan bertemu jodoh yerk. dah tu, anak dia ko nak letak mana? hehe, sowiey yer incik tunang. just joke jer. yg penting, saya doakan moga2 my MIL & FIL dikurniakan kesihatan tubuh badan dalam mengerjakan ibadah kat sana. moga2 mereka diberikan kemudahan & mendapat haji yg mabrur.AMIN. insyaallah.



lately saya selalu terpikir untuk ke sana jugak. hopefully masanya akan tiba suatu hari nanti. hopefully impian mak akan tercapai..AMIN

s.o.p.i.n.g.t.i.m.e

last wednesday, as i told before i've got a course @ KL. so, on my way back 2 putrajaya sempat singgah midvel semata2 utk layan jcard day. macam ada manyak duit jer lagaknya cik puan nih erk? senornya takdok duit udah, tapi sbb nak layan jcard, sanggup gak guna duit besi. hehehehe

bersama2 incik tunang, we all reround satu jj. lepas satu floor ke satu floor, habis sume we all redah. sudahnya, tak bnyk barang pun yg berjaya disoping. sebabnya, kewangan tak mengizinkan. kalu time gaji, mesti aku bule belanja tanpa henti kot. ekekeke

so, @ d end, aku dah membelanjakan duit utk membeli barangan berikut :

1. elianto make up remover
2. kitchen towel
3. bath towel
4. socks
5. underware

eventhough dh beli barang banyak2 pun, idak la abis smpi rm100. sumenya dalam rm60++ jer kot. tak layak k dapat voucher pun. heheh, sadis sungguh kan..

sebab beli barang yg murah tu menyebabkan incik tunang saya menggelakkan saya sebab saya beli underware yg murah. yup, mmg underware saya jenis murah2 jerk. jenama jusco. only rm10 (pack of 3)..dia gelak sbb dia kata tak pernah terpikir saya nyer underware semurah itu. pastu, dia nk compare2 plak saya ngn sume aweks2 dia. mmg la tak sama. saya nih kan cik puan yg berasal dari kg. even gaya sy mcm org KL(sume org kata gitu, klu 1st time jmpa sy), tapi saya takde duit yg banyak. haruskah kena beli underware yg mahal2 semata2 nk jaga standard? come on la..ramai jerk org lain yg bernasib kurang baik dari saya. ramai jer yg beli underware yg takde jenama, just beli kat pasar malam. kira ok la kan, saya beli kat jusco. itupun, dia gelakkan saya..mmg rasa kecik ati tahap gaban. tapi, nakwat camner. buruk baik pun, dia tetap tunang saya..terpaksa la rasa kecik ati tu saya pendam jauh2 di lubuk ati..

ohow, bercakap pasal lubuk, ada satu citer..
smlm, saya sempat singgah umah incik tunang. jumpa ngn FIL & MIL sblm berangkat ke Mekah. they all slmt dah pun bertolak siang tadi. moga2 dipermudahkan ibadah mereka berdua..AMIN...

opss, berbalik citer pasal lubuk. masa kat umah tunang :

TUK : nak balik mana nih?
SAYA : melaka
TUK : ha..melaka kat mana eh?
ANGAH : kat lubuk aper yer tuk..lubuk redan kot
ANGAH's WIFE : Lubuk BANGLA..hahahaha

Dalam ati aku, " pompuan nih nak kena maki ngn aku kot nih..sabar2.." mujur la kat umah orang. kalu kat umah aku dah kena dah agaknya ini pompuan. mulut mmg takde insurans..apa ker BERUK dia kata tpt aku lubuk BANGLA? dah tu, ko ingat kawasan ko tu bagus sangat? asal pun dalam utan gak. ada ati nk kutuk tpt aku. klu nak banding ngn tempat asal ko, tempat aku dah maju la wei..dah diiktiraf MELAKU MAJU 2010 dah wei..sedar la diri tu.BERUK nyer org S_______K..damn!!!

hehehe, apsal aku emo plak nih? dari smlm emo sbnrnya, nih baru berkesempatan nk luahkan sbb smlm bz soping..kihkihkih..

mujur adik n hubby dia tk dengar. klu adik dgr, mesti berasap gak telinga minah tu kot. minah tu klu angin, lagi hebat dari aku..hehehe

moral of d story, tulung la jaga mulut tu. hati2 bila nk kuarkan kata2. tak sumer org bule terima ayat kita even kita anggap mende tu gurauan ker. mmg la aku nih melaka sejati, tapi aku tk reti nak guna ayat2 kasar mcm org melaka sejati. kalu aku guna ayat2 kasar, ramai dah nangis kot. hikhikhik

n.e.r.v.o.u.s

she was attending a course @ KL today & she was so nervous coz there were lot of things happened today..hehe

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First, aku nervous dr tgh mlm td sbb kena bangun awal arini. takut tak terbangun sbnrnya sbb dh terbiasa bangun lewat & acapkali terbabas. mujur tersedar gak pkl 5.50am tadi..

Second, nervous nk drive ke KL sbb udah lama tak drive area KL. udah la tak hengat jalan. last skalik g tpt tu adalah ogos 2008..mmg nervous giler sbb takut terlewat & sesat. 1st time drive g KL guna MEX. biasa aku ikut sg besi. kat kerinchi link, siap nanya kat adik penjaga tol lagik samada aku kat jalan yg benar ker idak. heheh

Third, nervous sbb udah lama tak berkursus. takut tak reti nak menjadi peramah & berkawan. mujur jumpa kawan2 yg sporting kat kursus. so bule enjoy kursus. cuma tak enjoy bila takde minum pagi & ptg disediakan. penganjur hanya sediakan lunch jer. minum pagi kena cari sendiri. sabar jelah. nampak sgt gomen dah takdok duit. dulu punya la mewah kalu g berkursus. asik makan jerk. sekarang idak lagi. moral nya, sok kena bfast kat umah dulu sblm g sana. kang kalu kebulur tahap gaban, takleh concentrate ms dalam kelas.

Forth, nervous sbb dah tersalah jalan masa otw balik dari kursus tadi. udah la minyak kete tak berapa nak ader. huhuhu. pastu tak terlalu plak kt kerinchi link. silap masuk lorong, sudahnya ikut highway LDP. memula nervous tahap gaban gak, pastu tipon incik tunang. jadik cool balik. pastu bila asik jumpa jalan jammed, jadik nervous lagik sbb takut minyak kete abis. hehehe. sesudah nervous bersarang dalam minda selama 40 minit, akhirnya sampai gak ke putrajaya.

Fifth, sampai kat putrajaya, jadik nervous lagik. sebabnya tak reti camane nak beli petrol guna kad kredit. aku tak pernah guna kad kredit kat petrol pam sblm nih. biasa pakai cash jerk. nih kira takdok duit tahap gaban. terpaksa gak guna kad kredit. aku bernasib baik sbb bila aku kuar kete nak isi minyak, adik kat petrol pam tu ada kat situ & ajar aku camner nk bayar guna kad kredit..

huhuhu..banyak gak mende yg aku explore ari ni. bagus2, mende2 camni akan buatkan aku jadik gagah perkasa nih. heheh..

banyak sgt mende yg membuatkan aku nervous. penat layan nervous sampai tak jadik nak g jogging.

b.a.c.k.b.i.t.i.n.g

dun know whether we can consider it as backbiting or not..

yesterday, during our dinner @ RASA, ALAMANDA, we saw a couple used to sit infront of us. the guy looked sweet & so for d gal. that guy having dinner whereas the gal just have a drink. they just dun looked as normal couple in which the gal soo busy typing on handset whereas the guy concentrate on eating. it look weird becoz, the gal looked like not interested at all whereas the guy used 2 create conversation between them. it's looked like that gal shy-shy cat( this term exist kah?)

i thought only ME having d feeling inside but, amazingly my fiance also think d same way. during our conversation suddenly my fiance told me bout the couple infront of us..Homaiiigood, we're discussing bout them okeh. that one can be considered as backbiting? i dun know lah..hahahaha. if that one considered as backbiting, then how can us find them again and ask forgiveness from them?

::she's trying so hard 2 be perfect woman. lately, she's so interested in sewing. she also used 2 go 2 gym @ do jogging during her free time.gud enough for herself?

10.10.10

story bout 10.10.10..

everybody said that 10.10.10 is a special date. many events happened yesterday. everyone seems to create history on 10.10.10.

for me, 10.10.10 just a day that same like a day before and a day after. not much changes. only date make it special.

however, yesterday this couple used 2 go to Pameran Pengantin @ KLCC. the idea come from the bride to be ekcely. but, d groom to be is d one who make that idea comes true. both of them just wanna take a walk @ pameran 2 get some ideas bout their big day. ekcely, they have not decide d date yet but, it will be on year 2011..



finally, from d pameran, this couple have booking wedding cards. just pay rm50 & they can come to the shop @ anytime to finalized their choices of wedding card. amazingly, they also used 2 pay rm300 for pre-weds studio photoshoot which is valid 3 years from 10.10.10..so funny rite. the idea of pre-weds studio photoshoot never came across their mind before. ekcely, the normal price for the photoshoot offered by PICASO is rm1688 but both of them get it with the price of rm988..that's what makes them interested for it..

so, moral of d story, for the groom, please maintain fit where as for the bride please make sure u'll maintain slim okeh..otherwise u cannot wear evening dress for that photoshoot session..

m.o.v.e.f.o.r.w.a.r.d

@ age of 30,she move forward now.

from time 2 time she tend 2 be perfect woman. she just build up an interests bout woman life. she used 2 buy set of tupperware brand on friday. she spent almost rm150++ for that product.



how could she be like that? it sounds funny rite? she's not like her before. till today, she still has a dream 2 buy set of duralex. she got hari raya money from her fiancee & she wanna buy that duralex using that money..

but, till today she is not buying set of duralex yet. still waiting rite time 2 go to d shop & buy the dream set of her duralex..

d.a.m.n

dammmnnnnnn...

sumbody used 2 make her angry today..she felt really really mad @ this old guy. that guy asked her 2 replace him 4 d meeting with KP @ 2pm. no big deal for her 2 attend meeting but, d major mistake made by an old man is that he told that gal that he cannot attend the meting coz he has an appoinment with TOyota..sumting to do with her luxury car..damn stupid okeh..

she can tolerate if that old man said he cannot attend d meting coz having an appoinment wit doctor @ hospital ker..that's sound logic..BUT she cant accept at all when an old man wanna escape from meeting just to go to TOYOTA.....

once again, HOMMAAAAAAAIIIIGGGOOOOOOOOOOOODDDD..

all she can do, just be patience..she wanna go to perform prayer rite now...

w.e.a.k.n.e.s.s

lately she realized d weakness that she have inside her is that, she cannot tolerate with sumbody who is so GEDIKS..huhuhu, come on gal. how can she be nice wt sumone who is sooo GEDIKS in front of her eyes?

ekcely, she's too harsh naturally. that's y it is so difficult to her to communicate wt d GEDIKS one. in fact, sumtimes she felt like she wanna vomit against that GEDIKS person..hahaha, so weird la this gal. but, what else she can do? she's trying so hard 2 be nice to everyone before. alwiz shows her best in order 2 please others even sum of them used to criticized her.

But, lately she felt that she can't tolerate anymore..

maybe her age of 30 makes her to be like that. her age told her 2 be real person.

again, this situation makes her feel really really sick. how could she be pretend 2 be happy all d time but in real she is not soo?

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i used 2 told my mom bout PJJ married life. but, as a typical malay housewife, she's not agree at all wt d idea of PJJ. infact, she asked me to look at d purpose of marriage in ISLAM.

yup, i agreed. one of d purpose of marriage is that, it is d responsibility of husband 2 provide all d necessary things 2 wife like shelter, food, clothes & money. On the other hand, it is d responsibility of wife to take care of d husband including cooking 4 him, take care of his clothes & clean up house beside raise up his children. All these purpose of marriage will not achieved if we practice PJJ married life like sum married couple practices nowadays..

In fact, my mom used 2 said that if her daughter get married, she will not give permission 2 her daughter 2 stay with her anymore but her daughter has 2 follow d husband..huhuhu...So, with that reason, there is no room 4 me to practise PJJ marriage in future as what been suggest before..

c.a.l.m.d.o.w.n

she's trying 2 make herself happy. she's trying her best 2 calm down. there were lot of things make her headache. she felt so sick inside..really really sick. she dun know what to do anymore..in order 2 relief d sick she felt just now, she wanna share a funny story that happened 2 her few days ago..

last sunday, after went back from sban she wanna make a puding. special castard puding with corn for jamuan hari raya on monday. so, with confident she throw all d ingredients needed. lastly, she pull out tin of corn. unfortunately, it was not sweet corn but baby corn. homaiiigoooooddd....she tend 2 pengsan coz she was buying false corn. ekcely, she need 2 buy sweet corn for making puding but she was buying baby corn. so, how could be baby corn to be put up in d puding..

really sad u know. but, it sounds funny. her little sister laughing at her non stop that nite..homaiiggoood..really sad when puding jagung turn 2 become puding kastard next morning..

this is what we called baby corn..


and this is what we called sweet corn..


isn't funny? hahaha

s.a.d.m.o.o.d

she walk through an empty street searching 4 something. but, when she arrived at end of street she didn't find anything. only then she realized that it's sooooo difficult for her 2 reach an ultimate happiness..