ke JPO kita

Last weekend, mmg purposely follow mr. asben g JB.
Dia ada perjumpaan dgn geng kelas dia & lecterur kat UTM Skudai. 
Aku just follow sbb nk ikut g JPO. Sanggup eh apply cuti semata2 utk JPO. 

Kami bwk jugak budak tecit kesayangan..
Alhamdulillah dia tak meragam pun. 
Layankan aje..
Cuma, ada 1 hal masa kat JPO buatkan dia menangis..
bukan salah dia pun tapi tatau nape ms tu asben aku tu tetiba emosi plk. 
tak pasal2 budak tu kena marah..

eh, kite plak yang sakit ati. ahahaha

serik ok ngk dia marah budak tu. 
balik dari JB, terus bgtau dia, lenkali klu dia nk marah2 budak tecit tu, baik tayah bawak budak tu g jalan2..

aku takleh la klu guna kekerasan kat budak2 nih..

bagi aku budak tu tak salah pun. & mende simple je kot..
klu asben rasional masa tu, sure budak tu tak nangis pun..
aku is sensitif ok..
ngk budak tu nangis, aku pun nangis sama..

OMG..aku is mmg baik ati sgt2...

nanti la cite lagik..

jerawat

memang sejak dahulu kala muka aku nih bukan kategori licin bak pauh dilayang..
asik la ada jerawat..

iols si manis 17 yang asik ada jerawat eh..
sebelum ni tak la bape teruk sgt. tapi, sejak mak masuk hospital aritu smpi la skrg..muka aku mmg kategori teruk la.

samada aku nih banyak pikir, susah ati atau dh tak jaga kebersihan sgt sbb duk jaga mak kat spital..
now, alhamdulillah mak pun dah sihat..
isu jantung pun dah setlle, isu tiroid pun dah settle, isu mistik pun dah setle..
alhamdulillah..harap2 mak dan abah akan terus sihat sejahtera hendaknya..

now, time 4 me plk utk diri sendiri..
tadi dah g cari ubat jerawat..
aku beli clindamicyn ke nama dia..
beli kat farmasi..
harap2 ok la utk sang jerawat yg asik la tumbuh merata2 kat muka aku nih..
malu weh, hahaha..
jumaat ni nak nek stage plk. sabo jelah.

now mlm2 aku mmg tenyeh aloe vera je kat muka..
mmg la ok tp, maybe aloevera pun tk mampu nk tampung jerawat yg subur tumbuh melata nih..

aritu balik kg, adik la share psl dia pakai topicyl..
ingat nk beli mende yg sama mcm adik, tp td takde stok plk
so, amik jelah clindamicyn nih..
RM31.50. so, sila la santek ye wahai muka ku
sila flowless..hahaha

insyaallah..

oh ye, bab mak pun dah settle, aku plan nk start ttc semula la..
ye, aku masih berjuang utk dapat baby..
doakan saya ye..

suppose awal thn aritu kena buat prosedur iui skali lagik..
kira kali ke-6 tak silap..
tapi, ntah mana silapnya, tak terpegi..
doktel takde la..aku sibuk la..

rupa2nya Allah takdirkan untuk aku jaga mak
see, nmpk dah kan aturan Allah yang cantik tu..
so, now time utk usaha ttc semula..

hasrat nk kuruskan badan masih tk tercapai..
bila la nk kurus woiii
lapo saja aku nih..

aidiladha

Alhamdulillah..baru selesai cuti raya Aidiladha..

Terima kasih Y Allah atas segala rezeki dari NYA..
Dia bg rezeki utk aku masih terus bernafas..
Dia bg rezeki utk aku sambut raya ngn mak abah..
Dia bg rezeki utk mak abah dan sume adik beradik sihat walafiat..

Alhamdulillah...syukran2 Ya Allah..

Aidiladha kat sban, umah MIL
Petang raya tetiba cuti plak dah..tak pasal2 takleh solat raya..

petang raya, ajak asben balik umah kg kt melaka..
rumah tu dah hampir 3 bulan tk berpenghuni..sejak mak tk sihat.
so mmg raya haji ni aku ajak mak abah balik raya kt umah kg ni.
sbb kesiankan mak..
aritu ms kat ptrjy, dia ada bgtau yg dia rindu umah kg..

so here we go mak..
demi utk mak jugak, aku balik awal..ajak asben balik awal utk kemas umah..
bertungkus lumus la laki bini ni mengemas umah besar yg ada 6 bilik tu..lotih. haha

malam tu mmg kami tido berdua je..alhamdulillah takde apa2 yg ganjil berlaku..
kami dua laki bini tido pengsan..letih mengemas agaknya

next day, raya ke-2 aidiladha, mak abah n adik beradik smpi..
syiok la bole raya umah sendiri..
mak pun nmpk makin ok..alhamdulillah
compare dgn yg dulu..mak nmpk semakin sihat.
cuma kaki dia je yg masih bengkak..
kami risau gak nih. takut ada prob kt buah pinggang plk ke..
harap2 takde apa2 la

layan duk umah je smpi isnin ptg..
dlm pkl 3, kami sume gerak balik..
abah mak n adik balik umah adik..aku n asben plk blk ptrjy
sblm balik ptrjy, sempat ajak asben g MT..
cari dodol..suka benar eh ngn dodol lately..
hajat ati nk makan cendol..tak kesampaian plk..
kedai cendol uncle tu tutup..

asben nk makan kuih udang pun takdok..
so gerak slow2 balik ptrjy..ikut jalan dalam. tak ikut hgwy sbb jalan jammed.

smpi dengkil dlm pkl 6.00pm, asben ajak makan kfc..
makan lagik..demok2 la..what to do.

oh ye..aritu amma belikan kek besday. alhamdulillah ada gak yg sudi sambutkan besday aku nih ha..
moga kami sekeluarga dirahmati NYA..
moga Allah lindungi kami semua dari org yg tidak baik...Ameeennnn

29.8.2017

Baru sekejap tadi abah call..
Automatik rasa risau. takut mak tak sihat ke apa..

sekali, abah kata...

semalam lupa nk cakap Happy Besday....

Alololo..suweet sgt abah saya..hehe

Alhamdulillah Allah masih pinjamkan saya mak abah yang sgt baik..
Moga Allah kurniakan saya nikmat kesihatan untuk saya terus berbakti kepada mak abah.

Petang semalam, balik umah rasa sunyi..
sebab mak abah dah balik Melaka..
biasanya kalau diorang ada kat sini, aku akan rushing balik umah.
Kena siapkan diner..dalam pukul 6 lebih mcm tu diorang dah diner dah..

Tapi, semalam diorang dah takde..
Masa drive balik keje dah nangis dah sorang2..
Sampai umah, masuk bilik mak abah, nangis lagik..
hiba nya hati..
tu baru perpisahan sementara tu..
bayangkan klu yg lebih besar terjadi?
OMG...aku takleh nak bayang..

#Tuhan..Tolong jagakan mak abah untuk saya ye...

g keje macam tak bape best..
lengang je sbb ada yg dah cuti..
sehari je lagik hari keje esok..
31hb dah merdeka day
1st Sept Hari Raya Haji..

ni plk musim cuti skola..
ramai je yg dah mula cuti..
ikutkan ati malas gak nk g keje..
tapi, cuti dah tk bnyk..
takleh nkwt apa..
so layankan jelah ye..

hehehe

28.8.2017

Alhamdulillah Allah berikan kesempatan kpd ku utk masih terus bernafas di muka bumi milik Allah ini...

Terima kasih Allah atas segala nikmat yang Kau berikan..
Ye..aku hamba Mu..insan yang terlalu banyak meminta akhir2 ini..
Dan alhamdulillah sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mendengar..

Hadiah paling berharga tahun nih, mak dah selamat jalani prosedur masukkan stent di IJN..

2 hari lepas, 26.8.2017, mak dah bole kuar dari wad IJN..
Mak masuk wad hari kamis 24hb dan posedur utk masukkan stent dijalankan pada hari Jumaat 25.8.2017..

3 hari jugak aku dan mak berkampung di IJN..
ni kali ke2 mak masuk IJN.

Sbnrnya prosedur angiogram telah dijalankan pada 11.8.2017 yg lepas..
masa tu mmg aku sorang je yg temankan mak di wad.
Pagi Jumaat utk prosedur tu, nurse bawak mak ke OT dalam pukul 9 pagi..
lebih kurang pukul 10 pagi, nurse bgtau doktel nak jumpa..
masa tu aku dah nebes. dalam hati tk putus berdoa moga2 mak tak apa2..

smpi kat level 1, mmg kena sarung kelengkapan OT tu, diorang bagi aku 3 barang tak silap, baju, sarung utk kaki dan sarung kepala..
disebabkan nebes smpi takleh nk pikir camane cara nk pakai.
sudahnya ada sorang staf kat situ tlg aku pakai baju tu..

jumpa Dr. Saiful, dia tunjuk kat monitor, ada 2 blockage kat salur darah mak..
90% & 70%..
 so, dia bg option kalau nak buat bypass atau stent..
aku dgr dah nebes dah padahal sebelum tu mmg aku gugel abis sume ttg angiogram..
dah tahu dah yg doktel akan proceed ngn stent, ballon @ bypas kalau ada blockage..

cuma aku tk terpikir doktel akan panggil waris & suh decide immediately..
aku takleh nkwt keputusan..tny doktel, dia kata dia tanak pengaruhi aku..
then dia kata, dia dh tny mak. Mak suh tny abah..

ah suda..pitam la sy..hehe
sudanya doktel ajak masuk jumpa mak..
mmg aku jmpa mak tgh terbaring atas katil pembedahan tu..
mak kata tny abah..so doktel bg aku 3 minit utk call..

aku call abah, abah suh tny yg lain..
so bila mcm tu, doktel kata bincang dulu. tayah buat sekarang..
so aku redha kan jelah..

masa tu doktel siap cakap, saya tanak kamu buat keputusan. nnti jadi apa2 org lain salahkan kamu..kamu anak no 3, bukan yang pertama...

baekkkk...aku diam je. tp ms tu air mata mmg begenang dah.

so kisah 24hb ogos plak...
sekali lagi check in kat IJN..
Mak puasa start pkl 10 mlm..

25hb Ogos, 6am
Nurse check gula mak 4.2..
pkl 9am, diorang masih tak bawak mak g OT..
aku dah start risau takut mak hypo..sbb mak posa
so, aku g cari nurse & maklumkan yg aku risau mak nye gula rendah..
diorang call doktel, doktel suh amik lite bfast..
mak makan roti & minum susu..
pkl 9.30am start puasa semula..

then, mak rehat je..
abah, cik bob & adik ada dtg..
pkl 4.30 baru nurse bwk mak g OT kat level 1..
tunggu punya tunggu, pkl 9.00pm baru diorang tolak mak ke wad..
mak nye angio utk masuk stent doktel buat melalui peha..
alhamdulillah nmpk mak ok..
mak takleh gerak 6 jam smpi 2pagi..
kesian kat mak sbb aku tk standby nasik utk mak..
ada oat je so mak just makan oat sblm tido..

pkl 2am, mak tersedar dari tido. aku pun sama..
aku tanya mak, nak makan?
mak kata nak, so sekali lagi aku buatkan mak oat..
lps tu sambung tido.

pkl 5am aku dah bgn..
mandi nk solat..mak nk bangun..
so aku aruskan mak dulu sblm solat..
alhamdulillah nmpk mak makin ok..

dalam pkl 8.30am, doktel datang melawat mak..
doktel kata bole discharge..tapi lps lunch
apalagik, mmg tersenyum lebar la sbb bole balik..
so, pg tu asben anta abah ngn along ke IJN..
pastu adik lelaki dtg, bawak balik kami..
dlm pkl 3 smpi umah..

so far, mak alhamdulillah nmpk ok..
cuma ada batuk lagi la..
harap2 keadaan mak kembali pulih seperti sedia kala..
takde lain ku harapkan melainkan kesihatan n kegembiraan utk mak abah..

Tuhan,

tolog jagakan mak abah utk saya ye...

2.0.1.7

so many things had happened during 1st half of d year.

january 2017
glad having an oppurtunity to bring mum 4 olidey.
actually, we have wedding invitation @ Kulim.
so, before that, we went to langkawi.
my mum & family excited to be there..

during jan also, i got an offer from government to buy new house @ putrajaya
apartment for govt staff..so me & husband decided to buy it.
1000kps wt the price of RM220,000..
apartment @ Presint 6, level 20..so kayangan la..

 February 2017
my soulmate not in gud health condition..
one day, when i came late from office, he was very weak & high fever
bring him to clinic 4 medicine..thank god nothing happened to him
but me, blame myself for being late at home..

Mac 2017
again, unexpected rezeki for me.
dapat Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang (APC)..
for 2nd time within 8 years of services.
before this during 2011, dapat APC from dof..

also during March, having oppurtunity to go to Cameron Highlands wt hubby.
actually, i've courses there but knowing me, i bring my hubby too..

end of March, me & husband went to Kota Kinabalu..
staying there for 3 days. just go for island..3 island, Sapi, Manukan and Mamutik..


April 2017
last week of April, mum not feeing well.
she was vomitting for a week..

May 2017
1st May, mak admitted at GH..
after 1 week of vomitting, i used to brought her to clinic to get water drip.
after that, dia macam tk sedar..
so, my brother call ambulan & bring her to hospital.
she was hospitalized for 4 days & doctor said mum lack of sodium..

doctor also diagnosed mum wt hypertiroid..
& her condition not so good after that..

Jun 2017 
on 7th Jun, aroud 10am, my sister called me.
she said that mum not in gud condition. meracau2
so, i just told my bos to take a leave..
rushing balik melaka sehelai sepinggang..
crying while driving alone..
cannot think much smpi kan salah masuk tol..salah jalan la..

then, from ptg till 3am, mum is not a mum..
stranger dah masuk dlm badan dia..
cakap dh merapik2..

but around 4am, 8 Jun 2017 mum dh start shivering..jari pun dh kejang mcm nk kena strok..
so i asked my brother to call ambulans.
again, around 5.40am arrived at emergency department of hospital melaka..

this time doctor suspect mum kena sawan..
she stayed at zon kritikal dr pagi smpi ke petang,,then around 6pm, they send her to ccu ward.
doctor said, prob with heart.
at emergency, she used to meracau2..they tied her hand..
so sad to see her condition..

she stayed at CCU for 4 days then transfer to wad biasa..
so i used to take care of her at ward biasa..
going to work from hospital melaka..
then after work went to hospital melaka..

really tired but have no choice..
hope for d best for mum..

w.i.r.a

My Beloved Wira,

we've been together for more than 12 years
i luv u very much even sometimes u hurt me..my pocket
u're d one that i have..solely mine with my own money..
with u, i've travelled so many places..
all states in penisular Malaysia except Kelantan..
yup, i didnt bring u to Kelantan yet bcoz most of d time i took flight

there r lot of memories with u..
memories with boyfrens..girlfrens & of course family members
i'll let u go doesnt mean i didnt luv u anymore

but,

i have too
i have no choice since i cant rely on u to travel far
so, i must have another car in order to bring me back to my hometown
whenever my husband cannot bring me back

anyhow, i luv u with all my heart..no doubt..
sayonara WIRA HATIKU...

*************

adalah satu kesedihan untuk melepaskan perkara yg kita sayang kpd org lain..
cuma kadang2 kita terpaksa memilih yg terbaik utk kemudahan diri kita sendiri..

so,

last monday saya & asben g Perodua P15..
just tanya2 how 2 trade in my own car wt new one..
so yesterday we went to perodua again wt my car..
the valuer agreed to buy my car at 4.7K
at first he mentioned 4.5K but, knowing me..i'll try to nego
so he gave me 4.7k

with that, i am officially buy new car..
AXIA only..
cukup la utk diriku yg comel nih
malas nk pakai kete yg mahal2..
takut tk mampu
bukan apa, last year dah belikan abah Axia which is masih under installment..
nih tambah satu lagik..
so monthly dlm RM800 utk 2 kereta, should be ok for me
rather than i have 2 pay for more than 1K every month if i take luxurious car

insyaallah i'll get my new car soon..
hope for d best..
dun know the exact date since they have to order for Axia with black colour..
the seller told me there are axia available with yellow, white, green & blue colour..
but, again knowing me, i want d black Axia..
so i'm willing 2 wait till the black Axia available for me..

anyhow, Thank you ALLAH for this rezeki u give to me..