thank 2 God 4 give me this oppurtunity 2 enjoy d happiness.
ekcely, there are a lot of story i wanna share wt this blog. starting wt PAC program which is compulsory 4 me on last thursday & friday. really hectic when it comes 2 interview session. really mad when all of us cannot answer d question. but, nothing can be done except show a big smile & say sorry 2 d interviewer. other than that, i feel proud of my self when i can complete d physical activities successfully. they asked us to do a lot of activities including running at the beach. the course finish @ friday evening. late at nite, i reached putrajaya.
8.8.09
a big day 4 me. woke up early at morning. after subuh prayer i was driving back 2 my hometown. really tired on that day. @ 12.00noon, ada kenduri. after that, @ 3.00pm, his family came 2 my house. majlis merisik. really thanks 2 him sbb dia dh realisasikan hasrat aku utk kawen ngn dia. yup, lama dah aku tgu saat nih. saat utk dirisik. aku happy sgt bila ngk mak n abah gembira. eventhough aku tahu ada ayat dr pihak dia yg buat mak n abah terusik, tp mak n abah tetap cool. mom & dad, i'm really proud wt both of u. aku tahu, mak n abah nak sgt tgk aku kawen. but, when d other side said that we all akan tunang for 2 years, (not 1 year only as what his son said 2 me before this), both of my parent accept it. no argument at all. thanks mom & dad for ur understanding. aku yg mendengar kat dapur mmg dah nervous giler. aku takut klu2 ada pertelingkahan yg berlaku. mujurlah program 2 jam tu berjalan ngn jayanya tanpa ada pertelingkahan.
malam nya, abah sempat advice aku utk follow jer keputusan dr pihak dia. alasan abah, sbb we all di pihak perempuan. tak mahu dikatakan terlalu mendesak. sebagai anak, aku akur even aku pun ada rasa yg sama ngn they all. rasa terusik bila digambarkan seolah2 we all tk cukup duit nak kawen. yup, aku akui mmg ada conflict kat situ. silapnya pada aku sbb aku tak discuss ngn abah ttg duit hntrn. mmg aku rasa uncomfortable on that nite. rasa mcm complicated sgt. udah la emosi aku tk stabil, ditambah plak ngn situasi siang nyer berjaya buatkan aku nangis mlm tu.
smlm, aku & dia g shopping kat mid valley. cari brg utk hantaran. thanks 2 him again. dia bayarkan sume utk aku. sebabnya, mmg duit aku tk cukup. klu nk suh aku bayar sendirik, confirm bulan nih nyer duit kete sangkut. aku dh bnyk berhabis masa servis kete aritu. bnyk gak dia habiskan duit utk aku. dia belikan aku handbag & kasut sembonia. pastu set make up & perfume estee lauder lagik. mmg bnyk lah. aku rasa serba salah sbnrnya sbb abiskan duit dia. mmg sifat aku, tk reti nk menghabiskan duit org. klu diberi pilihan, mmg aku nk beli sume tu ngn duit aku sendiri. but, i have no choice. apa2 pun, really thanks 2 him. he meant everything 2 me. i'm glad having him in my life. wt him, i feel that my life is almost complete. aku benar2 berharap moga bahagia ini jd milik kami selamanya..
sayang, really luv u wt all my heart..
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